I've been seriously debating things lately. I really need to get my ass in shape, and work harder in school. Hancock doesn't offer an associates in my major yet, but with how slow I'm taking things now... it might not matter. But I might need to switch schools, if I want to get the degree that I want not what they just slap me with. The closest school with my major- and the one that I'd feel comfortable going to- is the University of Nevada, Las Vegas.

But on the other hand......

The salon needs more help. The current massage therapist is having health problems. My mom has suggested many a time that I go to school for that. And other family members have made cracks about me cooking.

So when I post, asking for advice on facebook, my oldest sister replies, "You wouldn't be the first to let the family down"

SO if I go to college- I'd be letting them down with the salon. If I go to massage school, I'd be yet another Lopez that wouldn't finish school, letting my grandpa and the rest of the family down.

Opinions plz.

Who were you with yesterday? The kids in basic baking.
What woke you up this morning? Gracie barking.
Do you like anybody? Yes.


THE PAST
Ever thrown up in public? At school a few times.
Passed out because of alcohol? Nope.
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? Do I want another muffin....?

THE FUTURE
What kind of home would you like? Something cozy-wozy, yet with room for my doggies...
What do you want to be when you grow up? I've thought of many things. But I'm currently wavering.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Hopefully less fucked up?

IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? They is nummy.
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? I run into things on a daily basis.
Do you still go trick or treating? I'm the one usually passing out candy.
What was the last thing you ate? Muffins.
Whats your favorite type of soda? Coke.
Have you ever won an award? Only those little kid ones for being a good munchkin.
Are you listening to music right now? This weird one on the salon ipod.
How long ’till your birthday? Ten months.
When were you the saddest in your whole life? High School, early college.
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? Buy, but not sell.
Have you ever heard a song written about you? Nope.
Something you want to happen in 2010? LOFF.

HONESTY SECTION
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? White.
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? How yummy my tea is.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? Sipping tea, filling this shiz out.
4. Honestly, have you done something bad today? Laughed at someone buying a bong part? XD
5. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? My mama.
6. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? Yes.
7. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? Pencildick jerkasses, my sisters, etc.
8. Honestly, do you bite your nails? Yes.
9. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? Maybe an overeating one?
10. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? Yes.
11. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? No?
12. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? There are a few who like me more than I like them?
13. Honestly, what was the last text message you received? From my mama, asking when I'd be done.
14. Honestly, are you in denial? That I'm pretty.
15. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night? Unless my cat or dogs wake me up, no.
16. Honestly, do you like anyone? <3
17. Honestly, does anyone like you? It'd be nice.

RAGE SECTION
1. What do you do when you’re mad? Cry.
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? Scream and make others cry.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? See above.
4. Do you swear when you’re mad? FUCKSTICK

CRYING SECTION
1. When was the last time you actually cried? This morning.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? A lot.
3. Do certain songs make you cry? Yes.
4. What usually makes you cry? Snarky comments, being yelled at, frustration.

HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? Not happy, but not sad.
2. What makes you the happiest? My biffles and besties! Joe, Rosie, Sisseh, Becks, Yukipon, Sephy, Pooka, Sinks!
3. What song makes you always happy? THE CHEW FU REMIX OF LOVE GAME.
4. Do you believe in yourself? Not really.
5. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? I say they are crazy.


STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.
A(bsolute) N(ever say never) A(ll at once)

STEP TWO:
– Name: Ana
– Birth date: 9/5
– Nickname: Bry, Korei, Naners
– Eye Color: brown
– Hair Color: brown
– Zodiac Sign: Dragon.

STEP THREE:
– The shoes you wore today: Kuromi covered flats.
– Your weakness(es): GLASSES.
– Your fear(s): Lots of things
– Your perfect pizza: doughboys. chicken, garlic, olives, white sauce.
– Goal you’d like to achieve: transfer to UNLV

STEP FOUR:
– Your best physical feature? Eyes.
– Your bedtime? 10-11.30
– Most missed memory? having local friends

STEP FIVE: This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? Coke.
– McDonald’s or Burger King: Crapdonalds.
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: looseleaf tea
– Chocolate or Vanilla: nilla
– Cappuccino or coffee: not picky.

STEP SIX: Do You…
– Curse: FUCK OFF SEAKING.
– Sing: badly
– Dance: No.
– Take a shower everyday: either a bath or a shower.
– Have a crush: Yep.
– Do you think you’ve been in love?: Yes.
– Want to go to college: I'm in college.
– Like(d) high school: HISSSSSSSSSS.
– Want to get married: Someday. I'd hope to give becks and rosie the chance to be my bridesmaids.
– Get motion sickness: No.
– Think you’re attractive: No.
– Think you’re a health freak: Avoids sickies like the plague.
– Get along with your parents: Yeah.

STEP SEVEN: In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: Yup.
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Naaaaah.
– Eaten Sushi: YUM
– Been on stage: OHELLLNAW.
– Gone skating: nuu.
– Made homemade cookies: Gingerbread!
– Gone skinny dipping: Too icky
– Stolen anything: as a young brat.

STEP EIGHT: Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: No.
– If so, was it mixed company: N/A
– Flashed anyone: Once.
– Been beaten up: no
– Shoplifted: Got caught, too.

STEP NINE:
– Age you hope to be married: Before I'm fifty.
– Numbers of Children: Zero.
– Describe your Dream Wedding: Something small. Maybe overseeing the ocean, or at a park...

STEP TEN: In a boyfriend/girlfriend...
– Best eye color?: Dark
– Best hair color?: Brown/Black
– Short hair or long hair?: Mediumish

STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: Look at the question about what makes you happy. Any of those people.

– Number of CDs that I own: A few.
– Number of tattoos: Savin for my turtle.Half there!
– Number of piercings: None

Omg Furuba. Rewatching the anime again (finished LOVELESS and Chrono Crusade) and I forgot how much I loved episode eight- Don't Cry- For the Snow Will Surely Melt. I've watched it twice right now- once in English, and once in Japanese. Furuba has a wonderful cast in either language, albeit some episodes are meant to be watched in one language over the other- episode ten, the first appearance of Hatsuharu is better in English, imho. But thats just because I'm a Justin Cook fan, and he's hilarious.

On happier notes, I FUCKIN GOT MY JOB BACK. WITH PAY AND EVERYTHING. I STARTED CRYING WHEN I FOUND OUT. OMFG. WIN. NOW I CAN HAS AN EXTRA 200 A MONTH. I CAN HAS MONEY FOR A WINTER COAT NAO. <333333333333333

Halloween is tomorrow, and I'm going to be a flutterby. All pink and black. Or a fairy, depending on how you look at it. Idk. But my wings are super nice- not flimsy or anyrhing. They were almost thirty, but I got them for half off at Torrid...

Planning on rearranging my room, so I can move Giniro into there. My mama is finally tired of my music and the constant takkita takkita takkita of my keyboard at all hours. XD

ICANHASFRIENDS. MATT AND VU AND RIDGE AND TIM AND ASHLEY AND PRICIE AND ADI ETC. <3

I'm also entering a gingerbread house contest next month. There's a fifty-fifty percent chance of me winning. I liek those odds.

Its an amazing thing, how pets resemble their owners. There's pieces of me in all three of the family dogs. Gracie has my anxieties- my need for reassurance, a safe spot to be. But like me, those are fading. Eady has my need to protect what, or rather, who is mine. At the same time, she has that same devotion where she struggles through her problems for other people. Charlie is my light side, happy to see people, and just be where I am.

And right now, all three of them share my love of sleep.

I've got a mix that I'm willing to share with those who want it- I call it my mininight set, as its my favorite songs from my nighttime playlist on my iPod. These are the songs that relax me, and are best for listening to in the dark of a car. Or while doing schoolwork, or anything.

So. September is finally over, thank God. Going over all the crap that happened during it would not be fun. So lets skip that.

Is getting another doggie. A black labradoodle named Gracie. X3

My turtle will be done next month, once I get paid from the school.

The oldest sister is a whore, who makes me want to bust my foot off in her ass.

The other sister isn't much better.

Brother finished school. He'll be heading off to graduate school...

...meaning I get a room, at the expense of not having my big brother around.

The niece is here for a month.

Planning on marathoning Loveless today and tomorrow. Maybe Chrono Crusade, too.

Cake decorating is over on monday. But final project is hard. Dx

There is a boy. And I like him. But does he like me?

My best friends are amazing.

Thursdays foods class is better than Wednesdays.

I kinda miss the boy.

etc.

EASY. The Fray at the Santa Barbara Bowl, last August. There was a shooting star during one of my favorite songs- Say When. And the opening, when they started with Happiness... where the light just shown on Issac... And everyone singing along during Vienna! I RECORDED most of Vienna! <333333

also, plugging.

http://bryonies.blogspot.com <~ my freshly started food blog. :3

• Cake Decorating, (1 unit, 8-12)
• Work- Basic Baking, (12- ?)

TUESDAYS:

• Work- Basic Foods, (12.30-?)

WEDNESDAYS:

• Work- Cleaning S-107/J-14, (?)
• Sanitation, (3 units, 5-7)

THURSDAYS:

• Work- Basic Foods, (12.30-?)

FRIDAYS:

• At home- Film 101 (whenever.)

RULES: Comment and I'll LJ stalk you to find THREE FANDOMS you apparently love. And then you answer these questions about them!

01: What got you into this fandom in the first place?
02: Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on?
03: Favorite episodes/books/movies/etc.?
04: Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)?
05: Do you think that more people should get into this fandom?

I'm getting a second job this fall, working for my friend Xan's family. They're planning on opening up a bakery where Gina's was, as she's moving to the mall...

Also, I kinda want to start writing again. I mean, RP is fun and all, and so is fanfic, but both of those get me laughed at by family... I want to be able to hand them something that I can say, 'here, read meh, plox.' and have them not sporfle. (unless something I wrote was lulzy) Its quite frustrating. I could hand them some of my Vienna fic, but I would know that its rp based, and not original. And mother dearest would get on me for the main character's language. >___

Still bored.

Tried some painting today- it'd been a while since I'd dug out my watercolors, and all I got done was finally painting in the dress on a little picture I've been working on. background wise, idfk. I tried to start something for my larger watercolor book, but I don't like the sketch so far...

Maybe I'll give it another try now.

I am not happy.

Yet I wouldn't call it being all 'zetsuboushita'.

Just commonplace depression. Maybe ennui? Idk.

Nothing really keeps my interest lately. The internet is only good for an hour, and thats even stretching it out, unless there's someone to talk to on the other side of the screen. But with the pre-summer slump, that tends to be rare. Sleep is boring. TV is crap. Books aren't doing their job. I even tried signing up for summer classes, but I'm on the waiting list for the ones I want, other than the PE one.

Hell, even now, I'm tempted to just click out of the net and go stare at the popcorn ceiling in my room.

so lets see. bridesmaids dress has arrived. its a lovely shade of orange...sherbet. ngl, I look like a giant bowl of sherbet with it on. Its too long, and its made for someone with x cups. so I'm taking it in to get altered later this week, and it should turn out loffly.

had another long talk with the biffle about some things that had been bothering me- mostly my insecurities, that sort of crap. and he said something so sweet that it only made me cry moar.

"you're my bry. you're my closest friend, someone I can go to for advice, or just to bitch. I trust you, I care about you. English doesn't have quite the right word. 'friend' is thrown around too easily, as is 'best friend'." <~ isn't he the sweetest? everyone needs a biffle. except when they're being douches, but that happens rarely! ehehehehehehehe...

moar latorz? idk. been really negligent bout my poor lil lj.

also, gimme some book recs. long summer, lots of time to read. D:

40 secrets about you.

1. Who was your last 4 texts from?
They're all from Rosie.

2. Where was your default picture taken?
On Myspam and Faceache, the salon.

3. What’s your middle name?
Elisa

4. Your current relationship status?
Single. D:

5. Does your crush like you back?
No.

6. What is your current mood?
Bleh and sleepy.

8. What color shirt are you wearing?
Grey and black stripies, with white roses.

9. Are you feeling romantic or frisky?
I'm feeling lazy, not gonna lie.

10. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
I'd change a lot.

11. Where was the last place out of town, that you went to?
Pismo.

12. Ever had a near death experience?
Nope.

13. Something you do a lot?
Sleep.

14. Do you have a fondness for gnomes?
Unless they're named David, no.

15. Who can/do you tell anything to?
My friends.

16. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Freddie Mercury.

17. When was the last time you cried?
Last week.

18. Where are you right now?
In the living room.

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Supersleep.

20. What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
Height. Hair. Laugh.

21. Who is your favorite celebrity train wreck?
I <3 Celeb Rehab.

22. What is a Saying that you believe?
Boys might suck, but us girls are just as bad.

23. Favorite color(S)?
Pink, black, grey.

24. What is one thing that annoys you on tv?
More like what -doesn't- annoy me.

25. Do you still like kid's movies?
Yes.

26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Already ate lunch, and I'm not thirsty atm.

27. Do you speak any other language?
Squishes of French- I should really pick that back up...

28. What’s your favorite smell?
Freshly painted rooms.

29. Describe your life in one word?
Fucked.

30. Have any tattoos?
Planning on getting one after the wedding.

31. What are you looking forward to the most?
Not looking forward to anything right now, really.

32. What are you thinking about right now?
When to go to the library.

33. What should you be doing?
Something productive. Idk.

34. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
My sisters, of course.

35. What are you listening to?
Gackt's Drug Party concert!

36. Do you like working in the yard?
Unless its planting a new flowie, not at all.

37. What color are your nails?
Painted black with pink flowies.

38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
I get clingy. And super snuggly.

39. What is your natural hair color?
Dark brown.

40. Why did you cry the last time you did?
Because of my best friend being pissed at me. ;____;

neglected journal is neglected.

but this recovering hikki has nothing eventful to post- her life is that dull.

I'm alive and in Grand Junction, despite an hour late, very bumpy plane ride. <3

Lessee. Leaving at ass crack of dawn tomorrow morning to sit in the car for six hours before going to the airport for three hours, flying for one (or is it two of them, coz of the time diff?) hour to see Satchan/Becks.

On top of that, I'm going to my great-grandmother's shack to deal with her finances. I won't be online again until prolly tuesday night at the soonest.

Capoeira the Monferno, level 25
Kurotan the Absol, level 26
Jinx the Vaporeon, level 24
Kanashimi the Misdreavus, level 23
Sunflash the Chikorita, level 22
Capistrano the Taillow, level 20

Three badges, just hit Solaceon Ruins. Taking it slow this time. <3